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Title: A Beautiful Mistake- Chapter 5
Fandom: Prince of Tennis
Pairing: Tezuka/Fuji
Rating: PG for now, NC-17 later
Length: 6/10?
Disclaimer: Anyone you recognize belongs to someone else and I make no money from their work. All original characters belong to me and may be used with permission.
Summary: Sometimes life can throw you a curve ball. You can either swing and pray you hit it or let it go by and take the strike.
A/N: This fic may be rife with mistakes, but I’ll correct them as I go along (and as you point them out to me), OOC-ness (but please remember that this fic takes place about 11 years into the future), flashbacks and other clichéd plot devices (but I’ll try to write them well), and I’m afraid I’ll be dipping into that pot of gooey cheese every now and then. Oh, and if I’m seen to be slacking in updates, I give you permission to jab me with a sharp stick repeatedly:)

The angst and all the pretty horses they ride. Also, never write angst scene's to sad love songs:(

A Beautiful Mistake

Four Years Earlier

“You’re a hard person to get a hold of lately, Tezuka.” Fuji chided with a laugh.

“Sorry, Fuji, things have been a little hectic lately with training, sponsor meetings and my English lessons.”

“Do you have time to talk now?”

“Yes, I have the rest of the day off. How have you been?”

“I’ve been good, a little lonely without you but good now that I can hear your voice again.” Fuji replied with a happy sigh.

“I… miss you, too.” Tezuka responded but Fuji caught the slight hesitation in his voice and his heart thumped painfully in his chest.

“Oh! Remember that job interview I told you about?” Fuji quickly filled in the awkward silence that sprang up between them.

“Yes, what happened with it?”

“I got the job, of course. They were so highly impressed with my portfolio, that I didn’t have to do a second interview.” Fuji answered, a hint of arrogance in his voice, then he laughed, “I knew a company called Tensai Portfolios could only be lucky for me.”

Tezuka chuckled, “Congratulations, Fuji. You’re good at what you do, you take pride in your photographs and that’s what shows.”

“Thank you.” Fuji blushed at the praise, glad for once that Tezuka wasn’t in the same room to see the color suffuse his face and neck, “That reminds me, I have a few weeks left before I start my new job, so I was thinking that now would be the perfect time for me to come and visit you.”

Tezuka was silent a few moments before he released a heavy sigh, ”Actually, Fuji…I’ve been mean…wanting to…oh, hell.”

Fuji could almost see Tezuka, glasses off, fingers pinching at the bridge of his nose as he grappled for words. He would have been amused if it wasn’t for the deep fear nearly choking him. He remained silent just bracing himself for the hammer’s fall.

“Fuji, this just isn’t going to work anymore. I…things…we…God, this is hard. Say something, Fuji.”

“What should I say, Tezuka?” Fuji was surprised at how calm he sounded.

“Fuji, we’ve been apart for so long and things have changed.”

“Not for me, I still want to be with you. I you.”

Tezuka flinched, “We have to be logical, Fuji. This…relationship between us can’t really give us the things that we need. It’s time we both started thinking about getting married and starting families of our own.”

The rationality of Tezuka’s explanation finally broke through Fuji’s dazed shock. He gave a humorless laugh, “Tezuka, I’m gay.”

“Look just because we had a sexual…”

“No, I’ve known since the second year of high school that I was attracted only to men. I accepted that fact a while ago and even came out to my family.”

“You did?” Tezuka sounded surprised, “Did…did you tell them about us?”

“No, you never said anything to your family and I didn’t think it was my place to tell anyone about that, until you were ready.”

“Fuji,” the relief was evident in Tezuka’s voice, “thank you. I’m not gay. It was just a phase…”

“Now I’m reduced to a phase? That’s all I ever was to you, a phase?” Fuji’s tone was sharp with outrage.

“God, I didn’t mean it like that, Fuji.”

“Well, how did you mean it then? Explain this to me because I always thought we were more than just…fuck buddies.” Fuji grabbed for the least flattering description he could think of, taking a perverse liking to the pained wince it forced from Tezuka. What he didn’t like was the desperation that had sneaked into his voice and he was powerless to stop it.

“We’re friends, Fuji.” Tezuka’s own voice was tight, despite the calm delivery of his words, “isn’t that enough? Friends, because that’s all I can give you now.”

“Have you ever tried to give me more, Tezuka? Did you ever love me?”

“Please,” now the first strains of emotion leaked into Tezuka’s words, “let’s not do this now. I don’t want to have this conversation.”

“I don't know about that, now seems to be the perfect time.” Fuji picked at the wound with a single minded determination, no matter the hurt, “Did you ever love me?”

“Fuji, you’re my best friend. I…”

“Kunimitsu, that’s not answering my question.” Fuji interrupted.

“Fuji, I don’t…”

“Just answer it!” Fuji shouted interrupting again.

A moment of audible silence, then Tezuka let out a heavy breath, “Yes! Dammit, yes, I did!”

“Then how can you…”

This time it was Tezuka’s turn to interrupt and the words left Fuji cold, “I just love Amy more. She can give me everything that I want in my life.”

The words opened a chasm before them, Fuji tried to speak but everything he wanted to say got caught around the lump in his throat. Amy, the mention of her name was the death toll to their happy time together that he had been waiting for. It made real what he knew, deep down in the part buried beneath denial, was happening all along in every email, letter and phone call that had carried her presence with it.

Game, set, match.

And once again, he loses to Tezuka.


“I have to go, Tezuka.” Fuji despised how weak he sounded.

“Wait, Fuji, please…I’m sorry.”

“Good-bye, Tezuka.”


“Fuji-san, is everything okay?” Miyuka startled Fuji out of his dark musings.

I’m fine, Miyuka-san.” Fuji answered, the well worn smile slipping back into place.

“You looked…upset. I thought something happened with the pictures.”

Fuji laughed, his smile becoming genuine at his assistant’s assumption that the photos would be the foremost of his worries, “No, Miyuka-san, the photos are fine. Perfect, in fact.”

“Of course, they would be! Fuji-san, you only do the best work!”

“You flatter me way too much.” Fuji chuckled, “Hey, how about we knock off early and grab some dinner? I’m starving and it’ll be my treat.”

Miyuka played with the ends of her bright red braid and studied Fuji for a moment, then smiled, “Are you switching teams, Fuji-san.”

Fuji’s eyes widened at the cheeky question and he laughed again, “Maybe you’ve convinced me to give women, or at least you, a test drive.”

“Fuji-san! That could be considered sexual harassment!” Miyuka feigned shock, then she winked, “Let me grab my purse!”

Fuji watched her hurry off, he was still chuckling from the playful banter. His eyes fell on the calendar and the smile slipped, ten more days and they would be face-to-face again. Four years after that bitter phone conversation and three years since they last spoke in person, time passed that still blurred that thin line between love and hate. Despite all the pain and anger, the promises to just get over him and find someone else, Fuji couldn’t stop the thrill of anticipation, of wanting to see Tezuka again.

His heart just wouldn’t let go.

“Fuji-san, are you ready?”

“As I’ll ever be.” He whispered.

Music:: One- Dong Bang Shin Ki
Mood:: 'complacent' complacent
There are 25 comments on this entry. (Reply.)
posted by [identity profile] at 11:07pm on 20/08/2007
You know? You have a very bad habit of leaving off before I'm ready for the chapter to end. -flails- Really, you might want to work on that. Geh. This hurts and there is so much anticipation! I can't wait for the next chapter!

posted by [identity profile] at 12:04pm on 21/08/2007
Thanks for commenting!

I like to leave each chapter with a little cliffhanger because I'm evil I like to build anticipation for the next chapter.

My dasteredly plot idea seems to be working:)

I don't think I was really going for "cutting", I was aiming for a kind of unwanted desperation on Fuji's part. I think that even with the absence of "cutting" a phone conversation can still be considered bitter...if that's the part your commenting on. Or, is it just the overall tone of the chapter?
posted by [identity profile] at 08:41pm on 21/08/2007
Ah, no. I think I misread something. =P Desperate he is, though. Poor guy...
posted by [identity profile] at 12:07pm on 23/08/2007
No problem:)

I have to say, I really do appreciate the way you take the time to give critiques, as well as, the nice comments:) It makes me think a little about what I'm writing and how I'm portraying each character.

So thank you:)
posted by [identity profile] at 01:53am on 21/08/2007
main like Tez.. how he cud prefer a woman to Fuji! FUJI!!! *sigh* i'm sry lol the fic is goin decent but yea u endin them at really odd places lol
posted by [identity profile] at 12:07pm on 21/08/2007
Thanks for commenting and, as to, ending in odd places...

I'm evil I like ending chapters with cliffhangers, I find it builds more anticipation for the next chapter.
posted by [identity profile] at 05:32am on 21/08/2007
This is painful!. I'm really, really hurting with Fuji, Tezuka was one hell of a bastard with him, specially if he was having doubts about his sexuality and finally falling out of love, then breaking up (in an horrible, painful way) over the phone!.

I'm sure things are going to end well between them, but Tezuka will have to ask for Fuji's forgiveness on his knees, crying and begging. And I hope poor, dear Fuji will have the strenght of not accepting him back at the first try, some things are not meant to be forgotten so easily...

I'm most anxiously waiting your next update! (yup, as in cheking my flist everyday to see if you posted something new ^^).
posted by [identity profile] at 12:14pm on 21/08/2007
Thanks for reading and commenting!

This is painful!. I'm really, really hurting with Fuji, Tezuka was one hell of a bastard with him, specially if he was having doubts about his sexuality and finally falling out of love, then breaking up (in an horrible, painful way) over the phone!.

I was going to have him do it by email, but even I couldn't make Tez that much of a bastard, and if you take it from Tez's point of veiw, he was seeing it as sort of a kindness by telling him now instead of waiting for Fuji to come all the way from Japan so he could break up face-to-face.

I'm most anxiously waiting your next update! (yup, as in cheking my flist everyday to see if you posted something new ^^).

OMG! I have a fangirl! SQUEE!!!...just kidding:) Thank you for liking this fic that much:)
posted by [identity profile] at 08:05pm on 21/08/2007
I'll be honored to be your fangirl! ^^ . Well, to be a devoted fan I'll have to bake virtual cookies for you ... *eyes an cranberry & almond cookie laying unsuspecting in her desk, about to be eaten*. Or shall I buy a pointy stick to jab you for updates?. Decisions, decisions...

I understand a little better where you were going with Tezuka's confession, a phone conversation was way better than a letter or email. Fuji must have feel so horrible... *sobs with Fuji*.

posted by [identity profile] at 02:58pm on 21/08/2007
i'm hating tezuka so much right now.... make him suffer a bit more please ^^ after a bit more painful, hurtful, guilt-tripping words from Fuji maybe then ou can give him a break :)

but anyway great update ^^ maybe next time a longer chapter??? (just a suggestion^^)
posted by [identity profile] at 11:53am on 23/08/2007
Sorry for taking awhile to reply. Thanks for reading and commenting!

I hand write (creative quirk) each chapter and then make revisions or addition to the fic as I type it, so what seems about 12-15 pages of handwritten fic, ends up to be about 2-3 pages of typed fic:), but I promise I will try and consciously make each chapter a little longer from here on out.
posted by [identity profile] at 04:48pm on 21/08/2007
lol lol i totally agree with wizli and rinapraval.. Tez deserves to suffer some.. Fuji is strong he can handle it.. Well, he cud try right???
posted by [identity profile] at 11:57am on 23/08/2007
Yes, I have made Tez quite the bastard (insert evil cackle), but there is some reasoning to it which I'll happen to make clear later on. It won't excuse what he did,'ll see.
posted by [identity profile] at 11:58am on 22/08/2007
You are not going to make it easy for Tez will you? You better not. Boycott Tez! (LOL!)
Thanks, but I think you are evil since your chapter endings are always cliffhangers. :)
When is the next one?
posted by [identity profile] at 12:01pm on 23/08/2007
Sorry, it took me awhile to reply:)

You are not going to make it easy for Tez will you?

I am most definitely not going to make it easy for Tez...or Fuji:) I, also, think that this little 10 Chapter fic is going to be longer than originally planned ::sigh::

Thanks for reading and commenting!
posted by (anonymous) at 06:51am on 23/08/2007
i think you should continue updating this story
the story line are indeed flawless, nothing is wrong with it
pleople love it at least few of my friends does
so please continue with the next chapter and i'm sure to wait for it
posted by [identity profile] at 12:04pm on 23/08/2007
Thank for your kind words:) I'm glad you (and your friends) are enjoying the story.

I'm working on the next few chapters now...trying to make them a little longer as well...and I should have 6 posted sometime today or tomorrow.

posted by [identity profile] at 01:49pm on 11/09/2007
evil Tezuka... hurting poor faithful Fuji there... I say we bash Tezuka's head to the ground or something... though I don't think Fuji would like it very much... still can we try on giving Tezuka a good concussion to knock some sense into him?
posted by [identity profile] at 12:22pm on 12/09/2007
Wow! I'd look out for the angry!Fuji lurking over your shoulder:)

Don't know about you, but I'm not willing to tangle with know how he gets when you try to hurt someone he cares about.

Thanks for commenting!
posted by [identity profile] at 04:36am on 13/09/2007
... somehow I don't really want to think about that... I think Fuji's already scary enough when he's not angry... I certainly would not want to be the one to be at the recieving end when he's angry... >___<;
posted by [identity profile] at 08:55pm on 11/09/2007

Rawr!!! Sorry, I told you I'm catching up and I'm waaaaay behind. rar.

-flails and throws tantrums- I hate breakups! -flails some more- But Tezuka does have a point. I try to understand him.

Okay, so maybe NOT really. I say: Fuji, GLOMP him!!!

and I'm also hoping for a happy ending... -moves to next chapter-

posted by [identity profile] at 12:28pm on 12/09/2007
::Ducks to avoid flailing arms::

I hate breakups, too:(

Oh, wait...I wrote one, didn't I? Never mind.:)

A happy ending? Hmmmm... I've heard of those...

Aren't they a little cliched, though? evil laugh
posted by [identity profile] at 08:51pm on 12/09/2007
wah? I HEARTS cliche. Meanie! T.T
posted by [identity profile] at 09:29pm on 11/11/2007
Oooh, what a dastardly way to end it! Fuji is still hurting after all that time. I can't blame him. He gave his all to his first love and that first love goes and gets married. Tezuka is a poopy head! *wibble*

Thank you for sharing. :)
posted by [identity profile] at 03:47pm on 12/11/2007
That Tezuka is a poopy head! comment just made my day:)

I enjoy the fact that I'm getting a lot of strong reaction to Tezuka's actions in this story. I feel like I'm on the right track if UI'm getting more than "this is sooooo cute" in my comments.



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